I've sort of neglected you.
I feel like there is both a lot and nothing to say. I could go on and on about Charlotte and her development, but then again, does anyone really care?
We're still tired over here. I've got it kind of figured out that if Charlotte doesn't get good sleep during the day, she gets MISERABLE sleep at night, therefore, I get miserable sleep at night.
It would seem like if she had a busy, interactive, stimulating day, she'd sleep like a champ. However, this is not the case. It's sort of like when you have a lot going on, or if you exercise too late in the evening, you might feel really tired, but your mind can't turn off...? Either way, she gets stimulated very easily and then doesn't sleep. seriously. just doesn't sleep until after 6 am. wide awake. fussy. sleeps maybe 20 minutes at a time. that is a long ass night, my friends.
BUT, I have it a little figured out that if she has a mellow day, even with an outing, she does so well at night. mmmm...mommy loves sleepy baby.
Anyway...I'll stop talking about sleep.
apparently i have nothing else to speak of.
Oh. I go back to work in about 5 weeks. I visited today and figured out my schedule, and had a few people ask if I was ready to get back at it. The answer to that is "Not really." I do know it will be good to have some time out of the house, talk with adults, and get a pay check. I'm just not quite ready yet. She's still a tiny baby! She needs me a LOT. And that's okay with me. I love her.
I'm wondering if I'll like myself a little more when I start working again. Maybe it sounds bad or weird or whatever, but really? I'm a drag. I'm pretty sure my husband thinks so too. I am no longer interesting, and when I do have something to say that I feel is interesting, I'm like the girl who cried "yawn." because no one listens. I've talked about too many mundane things that there's no way I could have anything interesting to say.
I'm not depressed or anything, I feel pretty happy on a daily basis, but I'm still getting used to this big adjustment. I do know I'm more fun now than I was when I was pregnant, but I'm just so different than I used to be. None of the people we hang out with on a regular basis have kids yet, so it's hard to have anything to talk about things that both parties are interested in.
Speaking of not being pregnant anymore, holy cow! I love it. I was either sick or sore...the entire pregnancy. Don't get me wrong, it's an amazing and wonderful time, but seriously, it is not easy.
Okay. Time to feed the boss.
I'll attempt to post more frequently...and on more interesting topics, perhaps? Probably not.